THE DEVIL IN ME
Dream Date: 12/31/1980
Female, 37, Michigan UNITED STATES
I have had this recurring dream many times since 1980. I am walking down my road and see an object. Sometimes a tree, birdhouse, trash, spraypaint can. I look at the object and think, “I bet I can make it move with my mind.” I stare at it (in this case the paint can) and it does move. I then become afraid and think that maybe it is the devil or something demonic in me. I then try to stop the movement, but then have no control. (I am thinking it must be the devil now.) I am Catholic and love God. Now the object (spray paint can) is floating in my face, threatening me. It then sprays paint in my face and I wake up alarmed.
I have had this type of dream many times and each time I desire to make it move, then want it to stop. I am unable to stop it. Sometimes I am lucid, sometimes not. I have had the ability to become lucid in dreams many times, but not always. If I was to guess, I have become lucid 20 times in my life. That is what I remember. Also, when I become lucid, I often choose to fly. I have had night terrors all my life.
Female, 37, Michigan UNITED STATES
Road: the dreamer’s direction in life
Object: spraypaint can, signifies what captures the attention of the dreamer
Face: signifies the dreamer’s identity
Devil: an unknown aspect of self
Interpretation in the Universal Language of Mind™:
This dream has many layers so let’s start with our approach to making sense of it. First, this is a recurring dream that began around the time the dreamer was six years old and continues today. The dreamer tells us she is Catholic and loves God so we have a general idea of her spiritual belief system. Her spiritual beliefs play an important role in this dream so we will be exploring belief systems, as we did in last week’s interpretation.
The components of the dream are similar, however, the objects change (sometimes a tree, birdhouse, trash or spray paint). This reflects a slight variation in the dreamer’s thinking. We are going to work with the symbols the dreamer gives us in the dream she submitted. She also describes becoming lucid in some of her dreams as well as experiencing night terrors throughout her adult life. This will be addressed in the following section.
Remember, this dream occurred when the dreamer was six. The road symbolizes the dreamer’s direction in life. At such a young age the direction of her life was dependent upon what she was being taught by the people around her. Other people’s attitudes, beliefs and actions were influencing how she behaved and what she thought and felt. This is true for all people. How an individual responds to external stimuli depends on who the person is as a soul and their permanent understandings. This is why children can grow up in the same family, have the “same” experience and have vastly different perspectives. In this case, the dreamer knows that her religious beliefs are influencing her because she describes it as part of the dream. More on this below.
The dream continues as she notices an object, in this case a can of spray paint. The can is indicative of a thought or idea that captures her attention while she is awake. She is discovering her mind through the choices she is making and the effects they cause in her waking life. The dreamer is willful (makes conscious choices) and this shows in the action of the dream. Moving the can in the dream indicates the use of will and imagination. So, in her six-year-old world an idea has captured her attention, is stimulating her imagination and she is choosing to do something with it. However, the imaging gets out of control and she reacts fearfully (I then become afraid and think that maybe it is the devil or something demonic in me.) There is a realm of good and bad that the dreamer believes in and she is becoming aware that her choices, (I look at the object and think, “I bet I can make it move with my mind.“) have led her astray. In other words she has made a wrong choice, from her perspective. Following is an excerpt from The Dreamer’s Dictionary by Dr. Barbara Condron and gives thoughts to consider regarding a devil in a dream.
“What am I afraid of? Do I feel like there are forces in my life beyond my control and understanding? Identify what these are. Dispel your fears of the unknown by bringing them into the light of your awareness. Be willing to admit your intentions, changing those which are dishonorable and destructive to Self and others to those which are truthful and constructive to Self and others.”
Please note that all dreams are about the dreamer’s conscious mind perspective. The dream itself is feedback from the dreamer’s inner, subconscious self to the outer waking mind. From a soul point of view there is no wrong or right, only learning. In the physical world there are parameters that serve a purpose. Spiritual beliefs show what will lead to soul awareness and spiritual development as well as the kind of thinking and choice that prolongs entrapment.
The most revealing action of the dream is at the end when the dreamer is unable to control the can and it sprays her in the face. A face in a dream symbolizes how the dreamer identifies herself. If this were to happen in waking life it would be uncomfortable at least, certainly disorienting and even potentially harmful. These are the kinds of effects that the dreamer has set into motion, of her own accord. She is the one who initiated the thought that the can move in the first place. The dreamer has done this to herself. Thought is cause is a Truth that exists regardless of age, race or religion.
To sum up the meaning of this dream, we would say the dreamer was captivated by a certain idea that she accepted and then fueled with her imagination. When her imaginings got the best of her she reacted by thinking that something was wrong with her and this affected her identity. In other words, her beliefs have distorted her perception of her true identity, her real Self. This has continued throughout her life. The key to freedom comes in opening her mind to the benefit of religious and spiritual beliefs because their sole purpose is pave the way to knowing the whole Self.
Religion is vital to the development of humans as spiritual beings. For example, Christianity teaches “Do unto others as you would have done to you.” This perspective is repeated in all the world’s major religions and here are some examples:
Do not do to others what you would not like yourself. Then there will be no resentment against you, either in the family or in the state.
Hurt not others in ways that you yourself would find hurtful.
No one of you is a believer until he desires for his brother that which he desires for himself.
What is hateful to you, do not do to your fellowman. This is the entire Law; all the rest is commentary.
Regard your neighbor’s gain as your gain, and your neighbor’s loss as your own loss.
Our dreamer needs to explore what she was taught about herself as a spiritual, everlasting being in order to understand the dreams that have repeated for over 30 years. Realize that she may or may not have been taught that something was wrong with her. What is important is that she internalized what she learned and believed that something is wrong or bad inherently in her. This set up a cycle of self-doubt that plagues her when she wants to change her identity. This can happen whether or not there is a religious foundation in your life. The reason we know the dreamer continues to be conflicted is that, the dream repeats and the dreamer tells us she has had night terrors all her life. She has a hard time changing her beliefs about herself.
In light of all this she is becoming more aware. This shows up in the lucidity of some of her dreams. Lets explore how lucid dreaming can cause unexpected effects.
The fact that this dreamer experiences lucidity in the dreamstate shows that she is waking up and beginning to change and evolve to greater awareness. Even at the age of six there was enough awareness to think in the dream, “I look at the object and think, I bet I can make it move with my mind.” Causing action in a dream while lucid creates an effect in the dreamer’s mind that will manifest. For this dreamer, she has prolonged confusion about her identity. It is important for all lucid dreamers to learn the Universal Language of Mind™ so they understand how changing a dream actually changes their consciousness.
Every person on the dreamschool staff has taught dream interpretation. Our experience, time and again, is that a nightmare occurs when there is a repeated misunderstanding in the dreamer’s life. Receiving the message of any dream means the dreamer is receiving a message from the inner self into the outer, waking mind. Putting the dream message into practice allows the dreamer to change and grow, according to inner guidance. In other words listen to the Self. Our recommendation to this dreamer is to ask this question. “Am I expressing myself in the way I desire?” Many people think in one way and express in another. This results in mental and emotional confusion. Endeavor to align your thoughts with your actions and words. Be the person you are meant to be.
The book we recommend is: The Bible Interpreted in Dream Symbols, ed. Dr. Barbara Condron