I believe that I am at the College of Metaphysics.  I am at least in the woods where there are tents.  I am standing outside of my tent with a group of unknown people and Dr. B*female.  I am supposed to teach this small crowd.  I feel apprehensive about this.  I declined teaching or some how it was understood that our meeting in this forest was because I felt inadequate as a teacher and was not feeling confident I could teach these people.  I was frustrated by my perceived inability.  I had a sense that I couldn’t push for it.  Soon though I began to see through my discussion with Dr. B*female that it was necessary for me to teach regardless of my own gaps.  It was necessary because through teaching I would learn.  It would, in fact, be the teaching that produced wholeness rather than waiting for perfection or complete wisdom to arrive prior to teaching.  As Dr. B*female and I talked I looked around and understood that all these people wanted to be taught by me and they didn’t care if I messed up.  They still wanted to learn from me and could feel empowered when they aided me in filling in the gaps so that all could learn.  I felt relieved that were all on the same page about how to create wholeness.  I didn’t need to have all the answers for these people to follow me.  I grabbed my books and violin. Dr. B*female stayed behind while we, these unknown people and I walked together for class.  The crowd was relieved I was teaching,Dr. B*female was peaceful and I was grateful that we all understood a sense of completion and a path to wholeness comprised in this unity.  Each aiding the other to fill in the gaps.  There was a sense of wholeness, completion and being in alignment with universal order.  I also had a flash of a dream about a restaurant and another flash about a big family was working with some discord.

Today was consumed by peace, love and connectedness.  From the very start I was plugged into that which was greater than myself, which was exciting, as that was a part of my ideal for this weekend.  I experienced mental endurance in a way previously unexplored.  In meditation at 5:30 in the morning I had my first clear experience, and I mean something beyond a belief, which is easy for me to have, as seeing myself as separate from my thoughts.  I could see the thoughts before me and had an instant realization that this was the ego speaking.   With this knowledge I was free to still my mind.  I was free because I was no longer under the illusion that I am my thoughts.  If I believe that I am my thoughts then, of course I would not desire to cease the speaking for then I would cease.  With the true separation of thought, the true knowing myself as soul, I could stop thinking to know emptiness because I exist beyond thought.  In the emptiness I felt such energetic power and supreme peace.  I was floating in stillness and persevered on the quest for peace.  This is how the day began.  This knowing quality aided me so much I realized my inner beauty and inner value because I am a soul.  When I am independent from my thoughts I can just be and love unconditionally.  On my unconditional love I was basking in my peaceful service.  I naturally wanted to connect with others and give them peace and love.  And in so doing I received a great lesson in Self-respect.  I saw my value, in the glow that came about in love showed and felt joy in being of service.  My Ideal for the weekend was committed service with the purpose of connecting to the divine.  This has guided me toward so much peace, directing my attention and showing me that when I am committed to serving my highest self peace ensues.  I felt connected to everyone in my environment through the divine.  Truly today was an exceptional day of service, God and the abundant, joyful peace of knowing.

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Dream 1- DP GLiDE#: 3f070Y

I was sitting with B*male (Trees of Life) at dining room table in Moon Valley Ranch House. He was talking and I was listening. The next image was me in a motorized vehicle (car) that took off flying very quickly through the air.

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Dream 2- DP GLiDE#: 3f060y

In a large outdoor park walking with N*male and a young child who is a boy. He (N*male) is pushing the stroller. I notice orange flowers blooming and birds flying low overhead. I hear children laughing in the distance.

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