Dream 35- DP GLiDE#: 3f062y

How did I feel about peace today?  Well today I had stillness as a goal and was very aware of how stillness fosters peace.  However to be honest I was fighting for stillness and peace.  I continually centered and recentered my self in quieting myself.  I felt quite emotional however.  I don’t know if it was 2 days with about 7 hours of sleep or the astounding number of blistering chigger bites.  I just know that while I had great awareness and desire for stillness, I was “hanging on” today.  I talked with another student (my class mate), I didn’t discuss myself at first, I just asked her how her day went and she start to talk and surprisingly, she also had a similar experience.  We wondered if it may be in our lessons as we are progressing, we are at a level of infancy which is causing unusual feelings of uncertainty and second guessing.  I did reflect on the peace covenant at least two lines of it and I put it in my introduction.  The lives were about enlightened service for our fellow man and bring peace to the one serving and the one receiving.  Also the lines about peace and tranquility are obstructed by those situations where the individuals work clearly toward a common goal for the good of the whole.  The gentleman I was introducing seemed to embody those principles.  Stillness in the present moment requires great discipline when one’s emotions kick in.  Yes the thoughts are first in but still I need to go from the emotion to the causal thought.  I think there are some core identity things occurring.  I’m discerning that I am not necessarily the way I have viewed myself.  I am trying to bring this all into the light.  So I am working to be peaceful in the process.  Looking at everyone today seemed very happy and full of love.  In fact, I thought my fellow classmate was having that type of experience and disconnected it was not a consistent still, but a goal/intention.